Sunday, July 27, 2014

Disguised Sun

My heart aches at the thought
that I watched your despair
eat you alive,
inside-out
down to the bone.
How foolish of I 
to mistake darkness for sunshine.

Monday, July 7, 2014

I Spoke Too Soon

I know somewhere deep down inside of you
that you're the same brother I've known all along.
I tell myself that no matter
how many times you fall down,
you'll always have that little tiny piece of you
that pulls you back up again.
I don't know what it is:
hope, courage, determination, love...
Whatever it is, it's keeping you going
& I'm standing at the finish line
just waiting for this to all be over.
I can't say where you'll end up
in 6 days, 6 months, or 6 years.
All I know is that if you're still here,
you're doing something right
and that's all that matters..
and I'm proud of you.

*3 days after I wrote this, my brother shot himself & was found in the park by a creek across the street from my house*
Rest in Peace, Daniel.. <3